09 February 2020
As I sit here on a Saturday evening listening to Storm Ciara strutting her stuff outside, I know that the decision we all made last night to cancel our plans, in the only half an hour we had together, was the right one. At the end of a week of days full of doing, an afternoon and evening of rest is what we all needed.
We have been ships passing in the night this week my husband and I, picking him up from work one evening gave us a rare half an hour together. Although some days it didn't feel like it would, everything slotted together like a jigsaw by focusing on what needed to be done rather than whether it would be possible, several mornings I was preparing our tea/evening meal at 9am. I stifled yawn after yawn driving Cameron to meet a friend for a few hours of mountain biking, we were running late, unsurprisingly, as my brain had pretty much run out of space at this point in the week. I surprised myself by being unfazed by this we are rarely the ones who are late, it was our turn. The wide blue skies made the journey a whole lot easier, whilst Cameron was riding I would walk, the sunshine made the thought of this appealing despite my tiredness.
Running through my week like a ribbon through my life has been the moments spent with friends sharing words and time. Words that have enveloped me like a warm hug as my brain was struggling to process a really difficult and long meeting I sat through one night. Words, unsolicited, that have eased my worries. Time that has helped things to stand still for a pause until movement is necessary again. The connections I have in my life to people, to places have carried me through. It bought me back to some words that I heard on a podcast, about the importance of nurturing these connections and by doing so creating places of sanctuary, protecting, looking out for and after each other, places where we feel safe. Those difficult moments that have punctuated this week have been easier to bear, less of a burden to carry around.
As the storm rages outside, my home is my sanctuary from the weather, keeping us warm and safe. I am really grateful to have such a place, as I have been grateful for the sanctuary of the people and places in my life this week. Storm Ciara is hanging around on Sunday, we shall be resting at home, recharging and resetting our batteries preparing ourselves for the week ahead.
I hope you have sanctuaries in your life too?