On Sunday whilst out with my youngest at the village pool I started to feel bloated and not quite right. After eating tea that evening I had to take up residence on the sofa as I was feeling distinctly queasy. By the end of the day my dinner had not stayed down, I was hot and uncomfortable and unable to sleep. I lay listening to the unusually endless traffic going past my house, folks leaving a music festival and hoped that I would be well in the morning. I did, tho weak from lack of food, feel slightly better. A morning of packing bags to go away probably did not help with my strength but an afternoon sat in the car was a good trade off. By Tuesday I was ravenous and all was well again.
It always makes me pause for thought when I am ill. It was hard on my children to see their mama not able to sit up or walk around at my normal speed. But they forget when you are sat sit and make endless requests of me that I am not able to meet without mamouth effort. I worry that I will be ill for a long time, especially when sickness is involved as I have Crohn's Disease, a condition that for so many is chronic and debilitating. My health is good, I can be up and functionally normally after sickness usually within 24 hours. I work hard to keep my health good, I manage my Crohn's through my diet and am strict about avoiding the foods that I should not eat to keep the disease at bay and to ensure that when I do pick up a bug/bacteria/virus it does not mean the disease itself will also return.
I would not be the mother I am if I was constantly suffering with a chronic condition I don't know how mothers that are, do. I don't know where they find the strength to get themselves up and through the day with their children by their side. I admire them. When I am ill I need to hide away and rest to regain my strength. I am grateful for my health, but know that it is important to look after myself so that I can be the mother I want to be to my children.